Worship Wednesday- A Broken Heart

(Jesus is my King. This blog will be focused largely on my relationship with Him, but I am specifically devoting my Wednesday to praise Him! I hope you enjoy!!)


My heart is broken. Not a broken heart from a boy, but a broken heart from a man. Jesus Christ. In Psalm 51, David writes "The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit. God, You will not despise a broken and humbled heart". More and more, I am discovering my brokeness over my sin. Not only  to what I would refer to as "surface sins": drinking excessively, smoking, sex, etc. but the sins that are within me. Specifically; truly recognizing, and acknowledging, the intentions of my heart.

In high school, I was a mean girl. Like, Regina George/Rachel McAdams/Lindsay Lohan kinda Mean Girl. I would be rude to people just because "I could". I would say hurtful and mean things because it was "true". I would sometimes even go out of my way to belittle someone, or "put them in their place". Unfortunately, there are too many instances to name, but as I look back at it, I realize how truly evil I was. There are so many people that I owe some sort of an apology too. However, I can't change the past. I can only repent of my behavior and put my hope in Christ that He will change my heart. It is a daily struggle to monitor my behavior. I've always been known as a loud, outspoken person and those are qualities I like about myself. But being loud and outspoken doesn't give me the right to hurt others. Still, I have to be very careful to not be too comfortable with friends or family as not to fall back into my old habits. Changing who you are is a very large task and it's simply not easy. I've come along way, but I still fail, and thus...my heart is constantly broken.

The perspective I have is this: God saved me, and has given me the desire to BE and LIVE as Christ did. This requires much time, patience, and transformation. In Phillipians 1:6, Paul declares "I am sure of this, that He who has started a good work in you, will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ". Instead of being down on myself in pity dwelling on all of my sin, I am able to look to Jesus and praise Him for working so diligently in me! Who am I that He would even care this much to work so hard to make me like Him? I am dirty and unclean and unworthy to be recognized by such a great God. I deserve nothing from him and yet, through His love and grace, I am abundantly blessed.

God's love is truly unlike any other. His love saved me and killed His only son so that I may live. His love wakes me up daily, and allows me to freely worship Him. His love enables me to love others. His love disciplines me and makes me deal with my sin. It causes my heart to break. He makes me more and more like His son everyday. This type of love is something that we will never know from man. This love is the type of love we will only every know if we are in Christ, and Christ is in us. My hope is that everyone would be able to experience the greatness that is in Jesus.

Thanks for reading. Lots of Love Forever....Jasmine